I really like this guy. he’s an artist and filmmaker. he’s so handsome. he’s so intellectual. he raps so well. he’s a good human. he’s a simple man. he talks nicely. I can’t wait to meet him and this buildup is so kho bethi hu Qaabu me. but I can’t act like its a date until he says its a date. no expectations!
im tryingggg
its hard not to have expectations, but I”m trying. I feel calm with him, it’s easy to talk to him. open book actually. I dont feel like he “hides” things. he’s honest.
today. first I sent him his profile by mistake, I was meaning to send it to my best friend. and now while scrolling through our chats I turned on the disappearing mode. this is all too embarrassing wtffff
my DND is on.
I can’t LOLLLLL
he’s gonna think im insane.
now that im doing really good in my life. I feel secure like I feel better. about myself, things around me. I feel blessed. to have gotten and done exactly what I prayed for.
I wanted to live in downtown; and here I am, in my cute cozy pink room.
I wanted to work at a chill clinic where I will like everyone. and like im one of the most important employees; and here I am working at a beautifulllll clinic. wearing my cute beautiful outfits, looking like a baddie. im the only full time CEC so im doing an essential job for keeping the clinic running and RUNNING good! I loveee my coworkers.
I wanted to be consistent in the gym. I’m entering my 4th month of consistency.
and here I am on a Sunday, sitting in my room. have broken the pattern.
Happy in my life after years!! I feel the growth. I feel the passion in me, I feel amazing from the inside. I cant thank the universe enough, my Gods my mom!!!!! everything worked out even better than I had thought how it’ll feel!
sza is my spirit animal.
she’s just toooo good! I have to see her in Toronto next, I think she does concerts in the winter time!?
its 20th September, 2026 at 4:4:4 pm currently.
beautiful day! meal prep done. laundry folded. house cleaned. room cleaned. fed myself. dinner is ready already.
just vibing on music.
lets light a candle. lit cactus blossom.
but yeah man this is all I wanted all along. and today sitting here realizing that im actually living through my prayers. this is my phal. I worked so hard for this day and I am here now! we made it here. in aug of 2024 I was so broke I didn’t know how ill do shit. I had spent all my uni tuition money for that semester and I didn’t work. I spent all the money in food and clothes and shit I didn’t even need! with my boyfriend at the time. I was so scared what I was gonna do. now in jan 2025 I had to pay the whole years fees but my mom didn’t know until the last second. that was a fucked situation but she pulled me through, I am not a graduated baddie. graduated in June 2026 (finished in Dec 2025). Life’s beautiful man. #loveyourz. like literally!
I wouldn’t trade any of my experiences with anything. they shaped me into the person I am today!
if 21 year old aashi saw my life now, she wouldn’t have believed it.
overall I have a healthy crush now, I have a beautiful job, my room is MINE. I’m working on my dream body (I already love myself!! but we can always do better<3)
I have money in my bank.
I eat amazing food. home cooked Sunday- Friday. Saturdays I let loose.
life’s beautiful. waiting to see how good it can get. while enjoying my life day to day. unlike how I used to be, waiting for this to be better, waiting for a day like today. I am in the a day like today.
lotssss of love!!!!!!!
aashi<3
